Where am I?

I had started this blog with the hope that I would continue to live abundantly and help others do the same.

Now I feel as though I am back in the cocoon. I am fearful any time I leave my apartment. I am not thinking "what ifs." I continually see my abusers attacking me. I hear their voices and how they promised to destroy me. For now the cocoon is safe...

I am lonely...

I really don't know what to write. I hide in my apartment to avoid dealing with people, but then I sit here by myself, drinking beers, wishing I could think of who to ask to come visit...