I would rather feel crazy with anxiety than feel this complacency that has me not caring about much of anything. With the anxiety I had energy to do tasked that are now a pain just to think about. The complacency pulls me into a mindless void of a person. What in Heaven's name is it that I really need? The medication is too much in the opposite direction of the anxiety and I would rather be antsy and nervous than a bump on a log. God help us figure out what is best for me. I have no drive for life or care for what goes on around me. They tell me to get involved with something outside of the house. When I go to something, I may be interested for a small while, then become bored or burdened by it's demands.
Send my good thoughts that I may find my way to stable, zestful living. Not sure I even know what that is like. Thanks for listening.
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