The first time in several days. That is not unusual for Sandusky Ohio, the no sunshine part. This time next week we will be headed into Winter Solstice, the shortest day of the year. After that our days will start to lengthen. At first it will not be noticeable, yet before long I will be on the upside of this Autumnal spin. Every August as the days become noticeably shorter I start to shorten also. My patience, my energy, everything about me seems drained and devoid of any caring or happiness. Many people said it is "SAD" or Seasonal Affective Disorder. That is only part of my many reasons to become to far beyond just 'blue'.
The deeper, more troubling issues stem from my childhood of chaos. While I can say now that I know my parents were good people I also can say they were both mentally ill. I am working on my memoirs to help me understand the wiring (reason behind choices) that is there, in hopes of rewiring into a more healthy person.
It has been a good help and starting point to write here in my blog, yet difficult not just putting on here for everyone to read. I don't wish to do that yet, because my story is important enough that I would like it gone over by professional writers just to check my grammar and word usage. It is my intention to write it in a manner that anyone can read it and come out feeling touched in a good way, not just the tragedy.
The Sun is shining!! I feel blessed to have my life. Many days I think of throwing it away. Help me keep the Sun Shining by supporting me in my writings. You can do that by sending me good thoughts whenever I come to your mind, or writing me an email of encouragement. Keep reading!! I will write every day I am able. Namaste
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