What a difference an day makes... not always for the better. I have awoken distant and sad. I felt something changing yesterday after lunch when I drove myself home after picking up my truck from the repair garage. My chest became tight and I nervously drove home making excusses for not doing the errands I had planned before leaving the house. I came in, took a seditive, called the kitties to come nap with me. We all crawled in bed. I slept about an hour, leaving the cats curled up in the covers. The tension was less, however my mind remained distant. I made myself continue a project I had started the day before. Having papers all over the livingroom, I felt it important to attempt to remedy that. While I did not finish, I did work on it the remainder of the afternoon.

When my husband came home and we decided to eat at a resturant and then go shopping for house and groceries. Dinner was nice, the special was 'comfort' food for me, country fried steak with white gravy on it and mashed potatoes, with a side of peas. It was yummy. That helped for a little while. I thought maybe I just needed a balanced meal... well I became more and more distant as we shopped.

I know I am rambling... sorry. Why do some people do just what you tell them hurts you? I had just told a close friend that something they were chosing to do could ruin our friendship. Point blank, no wishie washie talk. Then that person does just what you told them hurts so bad... I guess they expect me to either deal with it or end the friendship. Neither is easy. I have dealt with the action for quite some time now, so to plan on ending the friendship will take just that, a plan.