A new kitten...

Rex's owner called and desired Rex back... I cried... She only live around the corner from me, so I took Rex to her. She had a little all black kitten who I brought home and is trying to help me write this.

                                                                                               

Gratitude...

King of the House...

Still not sure on a name, I have tried Gabby and Rex. I am thinking about Zeus or Apollo. Maybe my friends on facebook will help me decide. Or maybe Zazzle after Big Bang Theory's Sheldon's cat? We will keep you up to date. Oh no, I just referred cat and I as we...

Remove the masks...

Just Dance!

Gabby...

He followed me home last night...

I coaxed him into the house with sliced turkey and within 2 hours...

He was asleep on my lap.

He seems healthy and he let me sleep through the night. He laid in my bed, at my side or feet. My plan is to take him to the vet on Saturday morning. He is not neutered yet, but you can tell he had a collar on for some time. I will watch around the neighborhood to see if any one makes a flier or asks about him. I hate the thought of some little child mourning the loss of their cat, however, I don't like the idea of giving him up either. It will be interesting to see how he does with me gone all day today. I work 7 a.m. to 4:30 p.m. I will ask if I am allowed to take a few extra minutes on my lunch break to come home and check on him. It is nice to have Gabby with me, even if he sleeps a lot. Namaste

Be Strong...

My New Loveseat...

I didn't have any trouble putting it together! Here are a few pictures to show you.

Eight pieces counting the four feet.

Back slides in place on these brackets.

Just need the arm cushions that velcro into place.

Good Travels...

Sunday had started out rough with a sinus headache which just afternoon gave way to some antiquing fun. Ron took me to Oberlin and Avon for a road trip through antique stores. I enjoy looking at all the old stuff even when I can't buy much. The unfortunate part of it, being a sensitive, is that many items carry the energy of their past lives. Some is positive and some negative energy. Going through the stores I had to continually surround myself with good energy. Part of an attic in one store even gave me a distinct heaviness in my chest. Once we moved out of that area I was fine.

I had limited myself to $30 for goodies and I spent it. My first find was a wonderful set of oriental prints for just $10 plus tax, of course.

My next find was a glass black cat. She is an old Avon bottle. She was $5, which Ron bought for me.

My favorite is this little furry kitten that made me giggle out loud.

And finally a Moon hook.

We ended our shopping with world market, at which I purchased some ceiling hooks and licorice. When all was done we went to Panera for dinner. It was a quiet ride home as we were both tired, yet very satisfied with a pleasant afternoon.

Feeling Good...

On Monday I have a job interview! I applied for Bed, Bath, and Beyond this week and they call to set up an interview. It would be a second job for me. My main job is still with Goodwill Industries, this second job is just to help make ends meet. Send me positive thoughts on Monday.

I Love Patchouli...

Why is it that people think that just because I wear patchouli that I smoke marijuana? Maybe because they don't really know me and the fact that I watched my father die of lung cancer and my mother of emphysema. Maybe because they never spoke to me long enough to know that, yes, I smoked pot in my youth, but never liked the buzz. It made me paranoid. I may never know, because they don't give me the chance to speak for myself. It is their loss, not mine... Namaste

A little boy...

A little boy of maybe, 8 years old asked me for a dollar. My first response was, 'I am not sure.' Knowing I had a couple in my purse. As I pulled one dollar from my 3 I asked, 'What do you need a dollar for?' He responded, 'To get something to eat.' When handing him the dollar, I said, 'Get something healthy.' 'I will.' said the the young boy. A few moments later I see him come out of the corner store with a hotdog. I really think he was hungry and I am grateful I had money to give him. Namaste

Several Parts...

Losing Co-dependence...

I love living alone. It is wonderful to do as I wish, when I wish, even if it is as simple as taking a bath. Speaking of baths, I soaked in the tub over an hour last night. I had fallen asleep and didn't realize the time, but was grateful for the quiet time. It is the simplest of things that make me happiest, the quiet, me planning my own schedule, and sleeping at my own schedule, too.

When seeing my therapist yesterday, she was amazed at the difference in my peaceful, happiness. We talked about the new place and my budget, the need for a second job and the fact that I am thinking and speaking clearer than she can ever remember. I won't be seeing her for eight weeks, which is good on my budget and for my self confidence.

Love is endless...

Waking up...

Since I did not sleep well the night before, I chose to take a sedative to help me sleep last night. After dinner I went to bed at about 6 pm, slept til 8. When I awoken I stayed up about an hour and ate a granola bar, brushed my teeth and went back to bed at 9 pm. Other than using the rest room I slept until 7 am. Now for the coffee to shake the sleep out of me. Any way, Life is good and I am ready for a new day. Sorry if this is boring but I guess it lets you know that I am doing OK. As soon as the love seat comes I will take some pics to post. I don't know who noticed, but I did put a pic of my car in "the pic of the week" spot to the right. Here it is again a little larger.

All is well. Namaste

Good Morning...

Day 16 of staying in my own place. Even though I did not sleep well (which I blame the latte I had with dinner) I awaken happy and ready to face the world. My weekend was productive and pleasant. Along with many little decorating achievements, my laundry is done, I went to a poetry read on Saturday and I ordered a new love seat. Homelegance 9715CH-2 Charley Love Seat, Chocolate Chenillewww.amazon.com 
The love seat should arrive next weekend, hopefully when I am home. It does indicate that minor assembly is required.... I will let you know what 'they' consider minor.

I see my therapist this week. She does not know that I have moved... or does she? I received her bill here with the new address on it. So if the billing gal said anything to her, she knows. I will find out on Wednesday.

I have been in contact with my younger son, he is doing well and is happy for me, yet concerned about my moving out of Ron's. He has just had a birthday and turned 25. Imagine that... my baby is 25. My older son will be 29 in January, I have not heard from him, but continue to text him with news of my life. I hope he is well.

That is all I can think of to share at this early hour and I must be preparing for work soon. It will be the first time I will drive my new car. I have too much to carry today, since I am taking the broken drawer into Bobby to fix. Have a Blessed day. Namaste

I am back...

The move has gone well. I am comfy in my 3 large rooms plus bathroom. It is an 100+ year old house turned into apartments. While not all the electricity is up to date, it is adequate for my simple needs. I just have to watch that I don't turn on too many appliances at once, or I will have to go into the basement to reset the breakers. I am still in need of a love-seat. The couch that I had brought with me could not fit into the door off the hallway. The stairwell, just outside my door, is situated in such a manner that it is difficult to angle something as big as a couch into it. So the couch was given to a friend's niece, who also was moving that week. The only other casualty was a small drawer from my antique dresser. I will be taking that to a fellow at work who is said to fix just about anything wood. All my friends have been wonderful helping to get things moved and feeding me now and then. So if you live near by and you would like company for dinner, I am the gal to call or email. 

Ron (my husband) and I are getting along well. He is working on what he needs and I am working on me. I feel so much stronger when I am alone, no one else to blame for my short comings or lack of discipline. So I am able to become stronger instead of using someone else as an excuse to be lazy. Life is good, and I intend to live it fully.

Oh, yeah. I also have a new used car. Like I said, "Life is good!"

Moving the big stuff...

Today is the day. I pray everyone shows up that said they would. I am ready to move the furniture and boxes over to the new place. Well, almost ready. A few more small details, like taking apart the computer, needs done yet. With that said, I will be off line for a couple days up to a week, depending on when the cable company is able to come out and hook me up.

So have a great couple of days. I will be excited to tell you how the move has gone and how I am doing in my new place. Namaste

Zippety Do Dah...

Yes...

and tough enough to make strong decisions.

Keep the fire burning...

Baby Steps...

Keep moving forward...

Moving forward...

I may have posted this one before...

However, I believe it so strongly that it is speaking to me again today.

I have decided...

I am moving into my own place.

Please send all the positive energy and well wishes you can.

The process will begin this weekend.

Sometimes listening to other people....

Can cause more questions. Try listening to your own heart.

Regret will last a long time...

Are you happy where you are...

We often look to others to approve yet...

Are you able to stay happy when others are not...

Many of us tend to 'pick up' the feels of the people around us. While I am not perfect, I try to take time and energy to be happy regardless of how those around me are acting. Happy is a choice!

Happy Feet...

I went to visit a podiatrist, because of extreme foot pain. In layman's terms, my arches are trying to fall. So I received a shot of steroids in my heel. Ouch! Started to get light headed after that. I am glad I didn't faint, I have always thought myself tougher than that, oh well, guess I am only human. The doctor also gave me a stretching boot and a prognosis of 100% if I follow instructions.

So last evening I did my boot, staying off my feet for an hour, 30 minutes each foot. I also took a sedative so that I would sleep through the night. It had been several nights since I was able to have a full night. Now I am trying hard to stay away. Sleeping 9 good hours always makes me tired for more, yet it is time to make myself move and ready for another day.

Thanks for stopping in and try to always have happy feet. So you can dance your way through the roughest of days. "Zip-A-Dee-Doo-Dah, Zip-A-Dee-Day" is my theme song.

Choose Happy...

Fly free...

Be true to your heart...

Peace in oneself, Peace in the world...

How do you see...

An Update on Life...

Hello There Everyone,

It has been a long time since I have written an update on my life. I apologize to those of you who desire more from me than my daily inspirational posters, however I am proud of myself for staying as consistent as I have with them. When I started this blog I thought I would be giving you a step by step of my recovery from mental break down. Well, as it went from mental break down, to mental break through, to a life of everyday ups and downs with a deadening of my emotions, I have realized I have done this more for myself then you. Don't get me wrong. I am glad it has spoken to many people.

I am writing today to let you all know that though the medication has some what deadened my emotions, Life is Good. Despite the unwanted dramas of living in our times, being married, and being 51, I am happy. Some of the dramas I have dealt with this summer are, being pulled in front of when I was going 55 mph, yet not getting an injury other than a couple bruises. My main computer is acting up, thankfully I have this back up. A husband that is more human than I wish to handle at times. A very strong desire to live alone again.

The living alone thing comes from having such a difficult time be Me when I am married. I feel like my priority should be the marriage and I tend to loose my lively personality. Yet I am learning. Becoming stronger and more determined to rediscover myself. I have done this through finding a new job and being creative in many different ways. Still I long for a space, (more than just my corner office) to say is mine. I realize I am no spring chic any more and many people would say that if I leave this marriage I may never find  a man that cares for me like Ron does. Well, that is the point, I wish and need to find a way to care for myself again. Be independent with many friends to make sure that I don't go hungry or lonely. I believe I have those friends now, and I am sure I will make a few more when I feel free enough to pursue my interests more.

With all that said, I will thank you for following my blog. I hope it has brought you some sunshine or helped you see things in a better light. Namaste

Challenge yourself to find out...

I trust...

I try not to have expectations of others,

because that just sets you up for heartbreak.

Smile at each new day...

Say what needs to be said...

Watch what you are saying Yes to...

Are you reaping the harvest of your gifts or...

Are you rotting with your problems...

Replace man with human...