Thursday...

Well, I have had a half a pot of coffee so far this morning. Been playing the mind numbing games on facebook while I wake up. The dishwasher is now empty and new dirty dishes put in. I still have a mass of hand washables on the counter. I am terrible about washing dishes. Maybe if I owned fewer I would be more compelled to wash them. Who knows??


Yesterday on facebook a gal I follow, https://www.facebook.com/Di.Riseborough.Intuitive.Life.Strategist
posted a question about being stranded on a desert island. I assumed there was plenty of fresh water, food and shelter as she asked what 3 material possessions would help keep your spirits up until rescued. My first reactions are what I put down; unlimited paper and pens, and a picture of my cats. I find it interesting that I did not say a picture of my family, husband, or sons. Right now and for a long time, I have only felt that my cats would have the hardest time without me. I am not quite sure what that says about my self-worth... That I should be grateful the Universe gave me cats when It did! That is all I have to say about that...


Well I did the kitchen all up and then my husband came home for lunch... Endless job... I had to bleach the cutting boards. Now I have the apartment to myself. Still jazzed up from all the coffee. So what are we going to do? I would like to ponder deep and meaningful thoughts, if I had any. I will go retrieve a couple from my facebook friends. I'll be back.

OK, what can we say about this statement? Do you agree? I do. I have had to handle so many unwanted traumatic situations that I am unsure who I am. I feel now that I am my husband's wife, not me. It is hard to believe that I will ever find me within marriage. I recall when I was living alone, how I decorated, what I wore day to day, who I hung out with. That has all changed, and not for the better. Even when I was working full time, I didn't hangout with friends. It was work and marriage. Very seldom did I see or spend time with girlfriends. I have a guy friend that I hang with often, however, we see Spiritually on totally different levels and I think that is what I am missing in my life. I need to speed less time on facebook and more time in meditation. That is what I could do for myself right now. That would mean less coffee also, as it would be near impossible to meditate right now. Spending time with Spirit will do me well.

Namaste