Another day...

I am feeling much better since I realized I messed up my medication. Sleep patterns are still not right. I keep waking up between 3 and 4 am. From then I am awake til about 6 am then I sleep another hour or two. Just waking back up this morning with Leo's help. Leo is my male cat, for those of you who don't know. Leo likes to get on my dresser and bat at my necklaces hanging from a bulletin board. The blessing behind finding out how I messed up my medication is beyond measure, yet the timing is good. I have heard from the BVR about working. Next week I start in a clerical assessment which allows me to start with 4 hours of work each day for the first week and hopefully go into something full time from there. I will be at the Goodwill offices for that first week. I am uncertain where I will be after that. I am debating on whether or not to ask about medical transcription training.

All in all, I am feeling hopeful that my future is becoming more abundant and productive. It is important to me to know that if something were to happen to Ron, that I can support myself. My Mother didn't teach me much, however, once she said "know that you can support yourself before you allow a man to, or you will feel stuck." I know that she could work hard when she wished to. I am seeing so much of my mother in me with this last episode. Mom seldom left the house and when she did, she did not linger any were except Amvets where she could drink and gamble. When ever I would take her shopping or to the doctor she would request that we take a ride after just to be out of the house. I would oblige when my schedule allowed. I miss here now and then but seldom think of her. She had a good heart, she was just unsure of how she fit into life. I remember noticing that she was a stronger person when Dad first past, then she relied on my sister and I to make sure she was happy. As we all know, one can not make someone else happy, they must decide within them self that they are happy. Easier said than done.

Thank you for utilizing this blog to help you in what ever way it does. Because it helps me stay positive to know that I am someone else's help. Namaste