This has been a stressed filled week.

Today is Friday and I am hoping there is no negative excitement today.

Tuesday was quite a day. It started out normal, other than the expectation of having my annual checkup with the gynecologist and a mammogram. Which was enough since I had not been there in a year and I have been home for the most part for 8 weeks. Prior to my leaving for my appointment I had a phone call from my son, who is having difficulty finding himself. The call caused me concern because he only calls when he either needs a ride or money. Sending him unconditional Love would be so sweet of you. My employer then called needing more documented information on my medical leave which I have been on since Sept. 14th 2011. Along with telling me that my FMLA coverage is about to expire which means they legally don't have to pay medical insurance nor hold my job for me. I know this place. I know that if they were assured that I would be coming back they would hold my position. However, I know in my heart of hearts that it is time to do something else. So I told them I would not be coming back. Final date being November 30th 2011.

Wednesday, I went to me first hair appointment in 4 months, I had buzzed it down to nearly nothing when my breakdown first started. That went well. My hair gal is quite gifted. I have been seeing her for 20 yrs now. Then when I returned home, in the mail was a letter from my employer. Not thinking, I opened it right up. It was a confirmation of my decision to resign my position at the library. I had just told them the day before. The thought that I would be receiving something in the mail with in 24 hours never occurred to me. Tears ran down my face. Grieving such a large loss is a needed process, yet that pain came unexpected. I had been there 11 yrs. The public and complaining coworkers just became too much along with my personal life stresses.

Thursday, there was some excitement here. A car drove into the flat/apt on the first level of our building! No one hurt. I was shaking, but that is to be expected. The couple that got hit and hit the house are OK and thank God they did not have their children with them nor did they hit any other vehicles. It is also good the the apartment is vacant at the moment. God is good no matter how screwed up things seem, He has a higher purpose for all occurrences. I have to remind myself that now and again.

Friday, 9am is now. I am a bit out of sorts with all the adrenaline up and down all week. It causes me to sleep more once the adrenaline wanes. So I over slept this morning, just took my medications I usually take at 6am. I don't have to leave the house today. So hopefully I can get back on track, or at least back to the track I was on before this week. Thanks for reading. I hope this helps someone know that they are not alone in their quest to find balance. I wish you all the blessings your big hearts can stand!!! Love to all. Namaste